Mommy's Little Love Bug

I wrote this poem for Skylar the day after she died. I have written others, but they are even longer than this one. I read this poem to her the day of the funeral. It was just something I had to do. It was one of the hardest things I ever had to do, but I did it for my baby girl.

Thank you.
Kimberly Bottomley

Date: Mon, 15 Nov 1999

SKYLAR MAY CHENEY
6/28/99 - 10/18/99

Mommy's little Love Bug
What ever will I do
How can I live out my life
And live it without you

Your cute little smile
Your cute little laugh
I would crawl a million miles
If I could only bring you back

There won't be a day that goes by
That I won't sit and wonder why
You were to little, gone to soon
Oh how I thought you hung the moon

A mother lives and will gladly die
So her children won't suffer or cry
But now you have gone so far away
And now all my days are dark and gray

Your with grandma & grandpa too
They are there to watch over you
Tell them that I say hello
And that I didn't want you to go

This may sound selfish
But I really don't care
I just want to die
So I can be there

To hold you, kiss you and touch you
For now that is all I can think of
How much I need to be with you
To you I pledge never ending love

There won't be a second that goes by
That you won't be on my mind
You know that I love you, oh how it's true Oh baby girl, how mommy misses you

I never thought I would see this day
I was the one that was to go away
So you could laugh and smile and play
Oh God why did you take her away

Daddy & Layne are crying for you
Oh how much they both love you
Layne isn't here, I didn't want him to see I want him to remember the way you used to be

This is a dream, just a bad nightmare
I will wake up, and you will be there
How can I go home to that empty place
And deal with life without your smiling face

I know this is long, I'm sorry to say
But I can sit here and do this all day
So I don't have to say good-bye
To my baby girl, with big blue eyes

I am the one who gave you life
And I just can't face the rest of my life Without looking down and seeing you there Laughing at me in your bouncy chair

Oh how I don't want to have to end this For you were the girl who I alway'd wished Would be in my life till my dying day
Oh why does this have to end this way

So my love, go play in God Garden for now We will cope, though I don't know how
Go play in the clouds and have some fun In that heavenly place above the sun

You'll always be mine in heart & soul
For you are the one who made me whole
We'll see each other in heaven, and I know that it's true Oh precious baby girl, I LOVE YOU